| Breakfast. Bowl of cereal + 1 small chocolate lol.
Lunch. Bowl of salad.
Dinner. (Future) Nothing. It is 9:19 In the AM.
Last night I got supper blown!
Everytime I'm out with my friend,
and we smoke, I always try to push my high a little higher,
because I wanted to know, what was my "boundary" and how High
my body would be able to let me get. Well last night..it happened. I suppose it depends on how long you have smoked, and how your mind set it, plus your personality, and how comfortable you are to determin just how high you really are lol, well The funny thing was.. I think in total, I only took 3 hits, 2 or 3, I don't remember right now but When I was taking the hit, I was thinking to my self,"I'm going to take a fat hit and see what happenes" AND OH MAN! I suppose I didn't realize how much smoke was in tthe bong. So when I was running out of air when I was trying to release the smoke from my lungs, obviously I was dying and coughing, choking, I couldn't breathe I had so much smoke in my lungs and It made me think, WOW I feel so scared for people who die in fires because of the smoke! Having so much smoke in your lungs where you can't breathe really is scary and it really does hurt. So when I passed the bong, I just rested my head on my hand, trying to regain my breath. My friend asked if I was alright and what happened, I explained to him that I took a big hit, he apparently missed it =.= lol, so he asked if I was high, I honestly wasn't I was normal, I said, "Surpisingly No" becasue I expected to be super high, but like... I'm going to guess, 5 mins later, maybe 10 I was HHHIIIGHHHHH. I wish I could explain how I felt..My body was tingly all over, and you know how when you feel like you were going to pass out you start seeing like everything in pixels, like everything was a bad movie because the pixels were off and they were blurry, well thats what I saw, and I was freaking out because I was trying to get use to how my body was reacting to the high, and it was a bit scary because the things I would think of in my head freaked me out haha, I think of a lot of crazy stuff about my self, and as being me as a person, it was scary. But now that Im not hight, it doesn't seem that scary now that I think about it, and also, I began to bring a notebook so I could write all the thoughts I think of when I'm high, because I'm super clever when I'm high, well in my head, just about the things I think, and it is really insightful, but when I'm not high, it's hard for me to remember things that I think about in my "high life" and vice versa for my "sober life" It's complicated, and a long post already lol, I just thought I would share my experience because your first really high high high moment only happens once, and I just wanted to be sure I could always look back and remember =) If you stuck around this long, thank you!! p.s I'm sorry if I offend anyone, I know a lot of people judge those who smoke, or think it is disgusting, But if you haven't tried it, maybe you should just once =P haha. well it's year 2012! All my girls I know you have goals set, lets all start this year off right! STAY STRONG |
